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[06 Jan 2007|06:58am] |
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so ive come to the conclusion people who ive thought ive been friends with are just acquaintances ... people ive been friends with for a while dont care
so either do i ... im giving up on friendships ...i tired to trust people and what happened? ... i got stabbed in the back ... and people wonder why im such a bitch all the time ... what i thought was going to happened did ... and it just proves how right i am.. all the time
me and glen are working on things.. and if you dont like it... fuck off.. i probably dont like you anyway
people have just fucked me over lately and im sick of it... im obviously not one to sit there and let people treat me like shit
i cant wait to move... you all suck.
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[09 Oct 2006|12:55pm] |
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everyones so happy for me
why cant i just settle and be happy for myself
everyone loves Joe ... and everyone thinks were sooo cute and everyones happy that ive found someone good for myself
so why cant i be happy?
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[13 Aug 2006|03:48am] |
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things have been so shitty...
i would not stop bitching the other night, so Glen just told me he was done, and that was it ... and all that ive gotten out of him from when he decides to talk to me for less than a minute is that im just mean to everyone and that im never going to change
i guess i have turned into a huge bitch... i never wanted to.. i told myself i would become the one who starts problems and arguments .. i just ended up having this huge guard up around me... starting last summer ended and i came back to school and all i started to hear were rumors about me.. from then on out i just have not not been nice to anyone, ive been stuck up to people i dont even know, lost friends for starting arguments... and now, lost my boyfriend for little arguements that built up.. and i just had to have the last word and that was it...one word too many and that ended it... i think about it now and i just think if i could have just shut my fucking mouth i wouldnt be in the situation im in ... everyone hates me
and i look like an idiot because me and Glen break up so much .. but this time it is my fault .. and even my mom has tried telling me it isnt and that Glen is just an asshole .. but he isnt.. he does everything for me .. anything ive ever asked for.. hes either done it or given it to me.. and i took advantage of that one too many times .. and i feel so bad because its like, you dont realize your doing it because you've gotten away with it before, but then you get in trouble for that one time .. and even Glen says, im not a mean person.. i just choose to act like that because i dont want people to get to know me and find the least bit of something to say about me .. im truly nice ... just scared to get hurt and really insecure
the only advice i will get is to move on with my life ... but i dont want to because i know in my heart i can change and not be such a bitch to people .. im sick of being the person who has to put their 2 cents in and being a hard ass and having the last word in arguments because im so damn stubborn .. i dont want that anymore, at all ... i just dont know how to make him, or anyone else realize that .. because not only did i lose him, i lost my friends too .. or people i was starting to become friends with
i wish i could just say "okay, i was wrong" and everything could be okay .. im willing to be nice, i promise =(
im sorry, to anyone, doesnt matter who... ok screw it, everyone, i am sorry ... im not better than any one and i know that not everyone is out to get me and ruin my life ... ive said and done some things to people that you wouldnt do in your entire lifetime, or even think about doing/saying... and i am sorry, it's sincere, i swear. =(
i also can not find a job if my entire life denended on it ... whatever.
my dads coming home for a week on the 2nd of september ... the only thing i have to look forward to .. i miss my dad so much =(
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[01 Jul 2006|08:21pm] |
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i feel like such a bad daughter... i called my dad for the first time in like a few weeks...
maybe its because i miss him so much and i just dont know what to say?
idk
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[02 Apr 2006|02:12am] |
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ok so heres whats going on
my dads flying to Atlanta sometime in the next couple weeks... i think my mom said the 12th or 14th and hes gonna be interviewed for this job in south carolina..
i think, well im kinda thinking about it ... but i think if my dad ends up getting the job i wanna move there with him so he's not alone
i could go to school in colombia cause i could give a fuck less about graduating from lamphere
and i dont see why not because my mom and my sister would move there eventually too
so either way, im moving to south carolina if my dad gets this job and i figure why not just go now because i dont have anything keeping me back .. i dont have any extremlely close friends here so why would it matter?
and of course i would get to visit every now and then since my entire family lives here
as for the whole Glen thing goes... i put nothing but 110% into that fucking relationship...and then for him to break up with me by text messaging is a fucking ridiculous way to end a relationship that we had for over a year ... i mean, of course im gonna fight to get him back because i do love him with all of my heart... i just feel like a fucking idiot for doing this every single time ... i guess its because i do wanna be in a relationship and hes seriously, not even the joking, the best i cant get
everyone has said that im too nice and that this shouldnt be happening... so i just wish he could tell me why i deserve shit like this
i went shopping with Kayla today ... it was good to get my mind off things for a couple hours and just have fun ... i got 2 shirts from hollister and 3 pairs of undies from victorias secret, then we went to starbucks and saw the most gorgeous black guy in the entire world .. and thats saying a lot since im not really attracted to black guys ... not racist but thats just not my thing lol
i just need to go to bed...
everyone enjoy the rest of your weekend =D
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[29 Mar 2006|11:48pm] |
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ahhh things are going pretty alright for me ... except for just ONE thing ... i think this has been the only time in my life where i could name just one things that im not happy with
Things with Glen continue to get better every day =D
if i keep my grades up until friday, i will have a 3.6 and hopefully that will raise my 1.5 cumlative
after school i took my sister and her friends and got coffee @ starbucks =D and then took them to grissom to see the volley ball game or something, went and got gas and then went tanning
it was SOOOOO BEAUTIFUL outside today
i got my check in the mail from clairol for 60$ ... so i was pretty happy about that ... and with the money from my report card (yes, my parents give me an incentive to get good grades, its stupid i know), and the money from chores and what not ill have enough money to do absolutely nothing lol ... i really dont like spending money
i got an A on my french quiz today .. i had a quiz in algebra that i probably bonmed because i havent learned much since mrs. wainz hasnt been there really ... oh well i cant be too mad, shes finally pregnant lol
as long as my grades stay up ill be happy ... i never though i would ever see the day where i would be worried about getting a C ... why couldnt i always have been a good student?
that would have been AMAZING if we could have seen the eclipse this morning ... i saw it on t/v ... but that doesnt count
im doing my research paper on UFO's ... go figure i had to pick the weirdest topic lol
ok im done rambling.
everyone enjoy the rest of your day =D
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[27 Jan 2006|10:53am] |
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i cant get onto myspace from the school computer so i decided to update my livejournal ...
i did really good on my report card... my gpa was 2.7 and i got all my credits.. so thats good
im kind of screwed though ... my cumlative gpa is still 1.5 =( ... i like my classes this semester.. there all really easy .. im hoping i can bring my gpa up so i can at least get into a decent college come next year
so me and Natalie still arent talking ... glen thinks its stupid because he said shes my best friend and we shouldnt be fighting ... even though i never had a problem in the first place... obviously she thinks i did something wrong... what else is new
me and glen have officially been going out for a year now ... so thats pretty sweet
im getting my hair done tomarrow since it still looks like shit
im gonna play some sponage bob collapse =D ..
later dudes
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[11 Jun 2005|03:10am] |
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yupp... finally got a sweet banner.
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[23 May 2005|09:13pm] |
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so, all the shit that happend with me and Glen happend a pretty long time ago.. so drop it, its gotten pretty old and were both over it so theres no reason someone else should being it up, when its none of your buisness, i mean it must not be any of your buisness considering you cant even leave your name? your ANONYMOUS comments are pretty stupid .. if you wanna be really sweet, leave your name.. but im sure thats wayyyy too much to ask :)
you so wish you had someone as good as him, i know i dont deserve him. be jealous ;)
go ahead, leave more ANONYMOUS comments :D way to have a life
<3
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[22 May 2005|09:18pm] |
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i hung out with Glen today, went to the mall, got ice cream oh, and i got a concusion.. glen needs to blonde proof his basement since he now has a dent in his ceiling ... ouch :'(
watching the leason finale of desperate housewives
later guys.
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[21 May 2005|05:09pm] |
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last nite, went to the movies nd saw kicking and screaming... that was it i guess
then today i went to Glen's this morning and his parents made us breakfest.. we decided we were gonna go to the zoo with Natalie and Dj and not to our suprise at all, they canceled plans.. so Glen must have been in the same mood cause he decided to do the same thing, and go fishing... so i have nothing to do
i didnt even get my f*ing starbucks... fucker
later guys.
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[19 May 2005|09:41pm] |
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remember to breathe:: dashboard |
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past couple days have been terrible ... i guess everythings getting better though, i hope
i get my permit next week, i guess thats kinda cool
thats about it.
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[17 May 2005|09:49pm] |
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be my escape:: reliant k |
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today was boring... i came home and took a nap
glen stopped by around like...idk ... but he woke me up but he came with ice cream so it was alright
now im going to bed early because i wanna wake up around 6 and attempt to do my hair.. probably not..and because my sisters throwing anorge fit.. along with my mom, ha
later.
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[16 May 2005|10:25pm] |
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we will become silhouettes:: the shins |
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drivers training was real gay
Glen came over for a bit, went to starbucks and then went to the hockey game
i driver again wednesday, so watch out lol .. the guy told us we prolly wont finish all the driving until after the class is over.. which sucks alot cause i just wanna get it over with!
Natalie actually said "i have a potty mouth" .. one of the funniest things ever.
thats all
<3
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[15 May 2005|12:40pm] |
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so it was a sucessful weekend! :)
me and Krysten couldnt hang out cause she got back from a recital too late :( i felt real bad.. but were hanging out after i drive :P
soooo last nite i hung out with Nat Dj and Glen ... like back in the day haha .. we were gonna go watch them play drop in but it got cancelled so there was really nothing to do since we had to go to natalies at like 12 so we just chilled at Dj's
soooo i woke up around like 10 and Natalie brought me home and now i have to leave in about an hour or so to go drive... i really dont want to though, i just want drivers training to be OVER ... hopefully after me Glen, Krysten and Mike hang out ! <-- i think mike wants krysten lol ...were trying to hook that up :P
later guys :D
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[14 May 2005|10:37am] |
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hmmm last nite was fine... me and Krysten came over here after school and got ready and whatever and Glen came and got us around like 6:30 and we went to go look at his friend Mike's new car, it was pretty sweet... then it started to fucking STORM oh man it sucked.. but we all went out to birmingham and got dinner n e way cause me and Krys were real hungry ... it was like me Krys Glen Matt Margo Mike and his brother.. it was alot of fun.. after we got food we went over to starbucks and then took Krysten to go see trowbridge lmao... i still think its the scariest thing ever haha sooo after that i think we went back over to Mikes so they could work on his car or something, idk.. me Krysten and Margo played with the dogs they were SO CUTE! alot people started to show upto mikes house and we wanted to leave so we eventually got them outa there and went to Becca's for a little bit.. after that we went over to Matt's for a little bit then Glen brought me and Krysten back here and we went to bed!
soooo ... were just watching t/v now.. Krysten's prolly staying the nite again cause shes sweeeeet :P
<3
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[12 May 2005|08:46pm] |
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so forget that last entry..
when guys come and bring youyour favorite ice cream theres no posible way you can stay mad at them at all
i love you so much, no one could even come close to replacing you! ... your the perfect guy for me, not anyone can even compare to you... your my best friend Glen, i love you
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[12 May 2005|06:54pm] |
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ha so this time when i got dumped, i actually didnt do anything... not one thing
oh well .. shit happens
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[10 May 2005|05:48pm] |
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My goddamn rock solid ghetto shiznit name is Wankmaster Teapot, Yo.
What's yours?
Powered by Rum and Monkey.
and that, is exactly why i am not a gangster... or feel the need to act like one :)
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The Keys to Your Heart
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You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. |
In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you. |
You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring. |
You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance. |
Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. |
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. |
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. |
In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered. |
i stayed home sick today :( .. i got to sleep a whole lot though.. and i kinda feel better..
i really, really dont wanna go to drivers training tomarrow, that really just has to be over with
thats about it..
<3
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